what made me

I get sad--a lot. Normally it happens when I am left alone or I am feeling lonely despite not being alone. Occasionally though, it happens because of nothing. Yep, that's right. Nothing at all, no reason and I just happen to feel sad. I hate to admit this, but a part of me is kinda used to it. These feelings of sadness & loneliness have been a part of me lately. I must say, it's easier to be sad. 'Cause when you're sad, all you need to do is cry and somehow, you'll feel better. But when you're lonely, that's when the trouble comes. You long for someone to hold you but everyone seems busy with their lives. Or you just don't feel like talking to any of them as they does not have your full trust yet. Then, the problem probably lies in you. After you've discovered that, what will you do? You are your own worst enemy, how do you fight yourself? Easy. You either let it eat you up inside or you embrace it. As people have always said, "keep your friends close, and keep your enemies closer." Even if your enemy is you. Then maybe, just maybe, when you're closed with yourself, you'll tend to love yourself. In time, you'll believe that it's okay to be alone, it's okay to have flaws. In the ends, your flaws are the things that made you--YOU. And you just gotta love 'em.