lost glitters

I want to travel the world. Forget all these grieves and hopelessness. Forget all these people who brings me down and people who bring rain instead of sunshine. I want to travel the world and chase the city lights. I want to travel the world and meet beautiful people and create beautiful musics and poetries. I want to travel the world and be free from all these mindless problems. I want to travel the world and forget about you, you, you, and you. I want to travel the world and just be me. I want to travel the world and forget who I am and just be who I am supposed to be. I want to travel the world 'cause I obviously don't belong here anymore.

out of fuck to care

Suddenly all the weigh is on your shoulder. People's feelings are fragile and everyone expect you to take care of them. Forgetting that you too have your own heart to be taken care of. It's wrong to neglect people's feelings but if the feeling is yours, it is fine to do so. People forget their simple responsibility, expecting you to take care of their responsibilities. You try not to complain, you try not to make such a big deal out of it. You try not to mind that you're tired but suddenly, one day, everything will come out to the air and it's not going to be pretty. Funny, I have tried to take care of everyone's heart but still they demand for more and when I try to take care of my own heart, I seem to be the evil one. Either way, I am losing. But hey, guess what? I am swimming against the current now and the one that is on top of my priority list is me, since no one is going to put me in theirs. You act like what I do or feel does not matter, so why should you matter to me?

i just want to be

I think too much. Assume too much. Delusional most of the time. It's time to stop hoping now that my romantic life will even begin. It just won't. Those romantic movies and fairy tales might happen to everyone else but not this girl right here. I just keep driving people away and I don't know why. I'm starting to be fine with it but that's just it. I am just trying. Doesn't mean I am actually succeeding. To think about it again, I'm not really sad for the fact that I haven't found anyone yet, I am more saddened by the fact that I can't keep anyone in my life. One tiny mistake and they're all gone. Just like that. Gone. Moving on. While here I am, wondering where did I go wrong. 

a legacy to be left behind

It's easy to be nice to strangers 'cause when you act nice to them, mostly it's because you want to and not because you are obliged to. And when you're nice to a stranger, in their eyes, you will forever be nice. Simply because they don't know you. They don't know your past mistakes, your sins and etc. They just accept your generosity and when you leave, that's all they're going to remember about you. Your niceness.