I feel like I've been settling for less than what I deserve. Starting from work to friends to my "loved one." I feel like I have decreased my worth for everything. I took jobs which do not pay accordingly. I lowered myself for my friends simply because I do not want them to run away. I even constantly tell myself that it's okay for N to make not meet my expectations simply because I am afraid that no one can lover me better. Yeah, most of this is my fault probably. I'm the one who set myself to be looked upon this way. I guess this is on me. It's just that lately my self-esteem has dropped so low and I am sorry but the people around me are not such great helps either. Nothing ever seems to go my way no matter how hard I work or how patient I am. People often mistook my kindness and silence with something else and as a result, I just get trampled all over. They took advantage of me. It's okay, it's okay, it's okay. She won't get mad or anything. She just won't. Well, guess what? I am sick and tired of everything. I am just fed up with everyone!
