Cheers!

Listen, listen now to the words I am about to say. I am not the prettiest girl. I am not the bubbly one nor am I the smart one. I am not the kindest person, I am not the most loving one either. Every family has that one person who always locks herself in the bedroom, venting out in her blog. She has all these words and feelings purging from her like heavy rain pouring down after the clouds can't hold it much longer  but when the door is unlocked, she stays silent most of the time. No words came out from her. She kept it all inside. She just fade in to the backdrop. Well, in my family I happen to be that girl.

I'm the girl who sings her heart out in her bedroom, who possess different kinds of books on her shelves; just to keep her company. I'm the girl who has dozens of empty notebooks because she has so much to say but she can't seem to find the time to write it down or even when she did, she couldn't find the right words. So, her dozens of pretty notebooks stay empty. She wants to change that though and she's starting it now. So listen, listen close. Listen to the words I am about to say. I'm the girl who does not have everything in the world, who does not have guys drooling over her mesmerising beauty. I'm not that type of girl.

Standing at only 5 feet tall with a gap on my front teeth, pimples accessorising  my slightly dark skin, I know what I look like. So yes, I don't blame you for not giving me a second look. I am fine by it. So yes, I know. I know. I know I have my flaws. I know I am not perfect. I know I lead a mediocre life. I know. You don't have to compare me with anyone to make me feel bad because at times even when I'm alone, I feel sorry for myself. So, save yourself from all the troubles. You don't have to point out and highlight on the things that I don't have because I am perfectly content with what I have now. Unlike you, I don't depend my happiness on material things, things that will eventually leave me.

Having said that, I am not like you. I don't depend my happiness on anyone. 'Cause believe me when I say that people have their own lives. Everybody is making their marks in this world. They have to forget you once in while to live their lives so, I let them. I don't mind being alone now. I guess I think it's better for me to be alone because if something goes wrong in my life, I have no one to blame but myself. I'll suffer a little but I'll learn. Unlike you, I don't have anyone to bring me my cravings. I go get them myself because I don't want to depend on anyone to bring me the things I want. I want to get them myself. I guess I'm egoistic in that sense. But I think I prefer myself this way. 

So yes, I know me. I know myself. I know my flaws. You don't need to point them out for me. You can try to use it against me but know that it's not going to hurt me anymore 'cause I have come to accept my flaws; just as they are. While I have flaws, I have my strength too and I don't feel the need to tell you about it because I always believe that action speaks louder. So I'll just let them speak it for me. You may have a pretty face and all the attention from the world or you may have the brain and wise words to say but I don't mind. As long as I know how to love myself and make myself happy, I don't want to depend on you nor I want to let your attitudes or doings hurt me.

I'll just live my mediocre life and you can continue living your glorious life for all I care. So, cheers!